Thursday, June 2, 2011

Turning 50

On the 21st of this month, I will turn 50. That milestone has made me take stock of things & set forth some intentions for transformation in the next few years -

I have been realizing lately that I have been concentrating too hard on some things & just need to get back to basics - I've been focusing on trying to figure out my innards & over analyzing my issues. The Goddess has been trying to tell me to just go back to the basics - to keep my focus on living with Her & she will guide me to the healing I need. I need to focus on a daily practice & She will then be able to work Her magic in me. So, back to basics. Stop worrying about the trappings & get to the living.

I have been very eagerly searching to find love & my soul mate. Once again I have been told to stop focusing on love & just keep working on me. As I let the magic work in me, then I will be open & ready for the love to come & the relationship to begin.I am impatient for this, as I really don't like being lonely. But I have come to realize that even with people around me, I still have times of intense loneliness, so being patient a bit longer is not going to be that much of change. And I can handle it - I will take the time to learn & grow.

I have also been worrying about losing weight. I need to for health & aesthetic reasons (at least in my mind) but I have been worrying too much about it - focusing too hard & then feeling helpless. When I feel helpless or inadequate, I quit. I decide that nothing is going to change so why bother. I need to just simplify - use simple tools that are available & do the basic stuff - count calories & walk.

I am obviously a person that really tries too hard to do most things in my life. I over analyze, over think, try to make things complicated. But the Goddess has been very firm in telling me to stop. Just live & breathe & keep it simple!

So my intentions for this waxing season are to keep it simple. Stop trying to over think & over do. Just daily serve my Goddess - do the basics for learning & growing & losing. Enjoy this moment in time - laugh, relax, de-stress. Let the inner journey take care of it self - just keep going where my Goddess leads & stop trying to draw my own map. I've never been the best navigator anyway -

3 comments:

  1. This is an excellent plan. Sometimes when we stop trying so hard, things happen in the way they should and happen when we least expect it.

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  2. Hey!
    I need to lose weight too (probably more than I want to think about, like 200+ lbs). I'd love a weight loss buddy, someone I can help keep accountable and someone who can help me do the same. :)
    Maybe this is Her way of bringing together people who need support, eh? :)

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  3. I would love to try! I'm not usually very good at this stuff, but I know better than to do fad diets because they end up causing more harm then good. I have been trying the cutting down on portions & counting calories & it seems to work pretty good. But I am having a hard time just sticking to it - staying motivated. My email is eiddews@gmail.com. Get in touch &* we can figure out how to do this -

    Thanks for offering - it always helps to have a buddy -

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